Freedom Cries!

Scarlet Loveless

 

Why am I here?

Why with you, all you do is make my pages forget about the glue.

I look into your eyes,

I see a black hole, no future in it for me…

No home.

 

I hate you with a passion

One that will never end

You have set me up to fail

Left me here to die

 

Your kisses disgust me; they make me want to vomit.

They are empty and misleading,

just as your heart.

 

You get pissed off and just yell,

Calling me every name in the book,

Making my life a living Hell

“Leave me alone!” is all I want to scream.

Find a new victim you ugly heartless thing.

The one who has a way with words at the start.

Making you fall deeper and deeper into his life-griping arms.

Pulling you further and further away from your own existence

It all takes place so smoothly,

Like a river you two once canoed on late at night,

While the lying words are being taken in to hurt your heart.

 

Sneaky little plans to rip it out.

 

Blindfolded I was,

The night you took my hand and my innocence,

Or the first time you said you loved me,

Along with promises of forever.

Devilish plans to break a sore soul

Never should have let him in,

Never should have given up my own.

Can’t live with never,

But I’m allowed to regret

Getting rid of the problem is my greatest task, yet.

 

I want to approach you.

I want to exclaim how far you have gone…

Shown me love and peace, underneath,

Then as this summer approach

I have been shown your rude, hateful, real self,

The one you no longer can hide back in your dark closet.

 

If I’m all the things you proclaim me to be.

Then why are you hooked to me?

 

Just leave! Let me be!

Take your hate and go elsewhere!

Find something else to do.

I don’t care to hang around you.

Find one of those girls you keep telling me, “I wish you could be,”

And go do what you must.

 

I’m done pretending, I have had enough charades.

I want no more of you.

I have liked, cared for, been with, loved, argued, dropped everything for, disliked,

And now just flat out hate you.

There is no new stage for me to give you!

 

You win; I give; now there’s the door to my heart

Get out so I can restart!